I suppose this journal will be personal and kind of private for now, until it becomes something.
Well,
This month has been bad.
October is supposed to be the only good month in the colder months, but stress with money, relationship, and car exploded right in my face. I hope everything turns before halloween, this year is nothing like last years halloween build-up. One positive difference though is money. Last year i didn't have a job, this year i sit for Jo, T, and J. They pay me very well, and it helps me get out in the working field again even if it's home based...it's the best i can do. I even get anxious some days with them, i am always afraid i will pass out, or be unable to do some things that i need to do being the responsible adult in charge. I am not used to driving stranger's children around, and their friends. I will get used to it.
On the boyfriend note,
I am not used to being in the position where i have to be the one supporting, as i have never even supported myself FULLY in life yet. Still live with mom. But recent events crashing down on him have left him with only me and my 1991 vw cabriolet that's falling apart to help him out.
It's on craigslist, and that makes me very sad, but i need a new car.
Better go return redbox dvds, grab a book from my car that will brought home from schmitts farm, and check the laundry. I hate the cold, it makes me so tired, lazy, and sick all the time. Not to mention the rise of anxiety when the sun falls.
California? Florida?
Love to, but i want my family there. So close knit, how i like it.
We'll see.
